Méli Mélo
Wow. How did it become mid-February? I had hoped to spend the month (after my Acme Burlesque show) doing my taxes. I haven’t even looked at my filing cabinet. If I look at my agenda I can see I have been busy. I have had my usual webmaster work for clients. I also had a dentist appointment which required me to take the train to and from the suburbs (I have been going to the same dentist since I was 16 and I have no plans - I like him and the technicians very much). I spent time with my family. I freaked out because I had to deal with the very unpleasant superindendent of my building when I tripped a breaker. I also went to Ottawa for the day to celebrate a birthday. I guess I have been busy.
Now we are mid-month and I have to make sure I do not take on any more work or meetings so I can tackle my to-do list. There is so much I want to get done. Yes, taxes are on the list. So is a major floor scrubbing (I did the kitchen and hallway - still do are the bathroom and the bedroom). I also have a bit of paperwork to do for my webmaster business and the very unpleasant forms to fill out for my divorce. I have kind put my head in the sand regarding that. It makes me sick to my stomach but it needs to be done. We both need to move on. I suppose because I am the one that did the leaving he is expecting for me to do the initial filing. I am not sure. We are not talking. Why is it so much easier to get married than it is to get divorced?
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My burlesque show was an incredible success. That bit of bliss lingered quite a bit. It seems this first show is only the beginning an inspiring and exciting project. All hail Acme Burlesque!
I started performing burlesque in 2003 as a way to explore old fashioned sexy entertainment while never denying or apologizing that I was also a porn performer.  I have a holistic view of my life. I am able to compartmentalize, but at the end of the day my many experiences, interests, dreams, hopes, trials and tribulations make up one person - me. I enjoyed using porn to express this but it has its limits and challenging consequences. When I discovered burlesque I decided to use it as another way to express myself. It sure was energizing then as it is now to have an artistic performance medium to help me do so. I got hooked! What a fun, sparkly, dramatic, and silly thing to love and be a part of!
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Oh yes, I just remembered something else that also what took up a chunk of time. My birthday immediately followed the premier Acme Burlesque show. It was an amazing day. I went to Le Scandinave in the afternoon. It is free to do 3 hours of circuit on your birthday. I did that and got a massage thanks to a gift certificate. It was heavenly. The experience kept me floating in my little bliss bubble for many hours after. I guess this past week has been about popping that bubble and dealing with tense and unpleasant life experiences. Bleh.